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I was a good Catholic all my life, went to Mass and confession regularly. And then something happened about three years ago. I realized Sunday stressed me because of the thought of going to Mass. It would make me antsy and guilty and tired. So I stopped going for many reasons:
1) In our village, I hate fighting for seats.
2) In general, the priests don’t say anything that means anything to me. For example, during the weekend of Ondoy, the priest didn’t even mention the flood, he just talked about the Gospel. I hate it when priests write their sermon and read from a printout instead of speaking from the heart.
3) I hate it when Mass turns political.
4) No offence to my dozens of gay friends, but I don’t like gay priests saying Mass.
5) It’s so hard to confess, I swear to God. We used to be able to confess during Mass and then something happened and they stopped doing this. And I hate going to Mass without the benefit of Holy Communion.
6) All church restrooms in Manila are SCARY.
7) I really feel bad when the priest says “piss bi wid you” instead of “peace be with you.” Some people giggle. I just get annoyed. I wish we had more intelligent priests.
8. Some priests have turned me off the Church. The gay priests, the yabang priests, and the priest who was playing a CD in his airconed office while I was confessing to him. I like Frank Sinatra, but I can’t concentrate if I’m singing along in my head.
9) The fact that I cannot take communion every week because there is something I need to confess—such as not going to Mass on Sunday due to all of the reasons above.

Yes, I feel wretched and unhappy about this. I hate crowded places, I hate fight for seats, I hate the meaningless sermons and the changing cheesy versions of Ama Namin, I can’t keep up. I know I’m asking for too much but I really wish we had nice churches that inspire and not cause one to daydream, check one’s phone, and wish it were over as soon as we came in.
That said, this spoken word video says a lot to me. I’m not saying I’m right or he’s right, I’m just saying, Dear God, please forgive me for feeling this way. I do wish I were a good Catholic who just goes to Mass every Sunday even if I don’t feel like it. But I have felt more relief staying home on Sunday than planning my day around a Mass that doesn’t mean anything to me.
You did say keep the Sabbath holy and rest. I do like to rest on Sunday, not stress (I’m sorry).
There are days that I thirst and want to go to confession and cleanse myself, like last night and now, but where to find that Church that inspires me?
P.S. I am Catholic and will always be, so please don’t try to recruit me to another church/service/pastor.
Thank you @kingcrux31 for sharing this video. Watch and listen.

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Excuse me, the church is collecting such an unbelievable amount of money every collection they hold that upgrading the bathrooms in the house you invite your followers in is, well sort of a priority, a “thank you” for supporting us or is the church trying to let all of us believe they are poor and live poorly while having all this money stacked in bank accounts, bonds and stocks? You are correct in saying that priests are meant to be the messengers of God`s word… but are they? Yes I agree, we do not want entertainers but at the same… Read more »

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By the way, I do respect that you don’t like going to mass. I do have friends who don’t go to mass and I don’t convince them to. Maybe it’s just your reasons that annoyed me. Maybe if you said, “di ko lang feel” or “I don’t feel close to God when I go to mass,” I wouldn’t react negatively, It was more of the gay and barok priests and dirty restroom comments that annoyed me.

Anyway, have a good day.

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Um, I’m sorry but do you have a bladder problem or something? So what if the restrooms are dirty? it’s just an hour, can’t you hold your pee for an hour? I do agree with some of your posts regarding priests. I also hate it when priests do political sermons especially about the RH bill, a bill that I support. I don’t however go to church because of the priests. I go to church to devote an hour to God. Even if it’s masikip, or my feet are tired from standing, okay lang. It’s an hour’s sacrifice to be with… Read more »

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It makes me sad when priests only talks about politics and I can’t concentrate on the sermon anymore. Other than that; I feel complete going on Sunday mass. The “scary” restrooms, limited seats, heat, etc — I take it all as a challenge every sunday  =) 

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Us Catholics have long been taught the Catholic Church is the people: us, ALL of whom are imperfect, and trying to attain grace every day. (Actually, all churches are the people too!) What keeps me sustained is to keep trying. There will be harder things to get over than a bad bathroom at a church or an uninspiring priest. (I’ve had LOTS of those!) Just go to Mass — it’s just one hour. You can wait that long for a download of a TV episode to your computer, why not an spend a mere 60 mins to something you know… Read more »

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Religion? GEORGE CARLIN.

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Agree. Even here in Sydney, Australia. I also don’t like being hijack by charitable groups for donations. I donate what I can afford but every week of different groups asking for money, give me a break, I will need a second job just to afford these groups. Aside from the fact, the Catholic Church here is one of the richest religion here coz they’re tax free. Religion anywhere has become so insincere n materialistic. Preying in people’s emotions.    

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