chuvaness
Kian’s death is bothering me
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I first heard it from my hairstylist: a grade 11 boy was framed and killed for peddling drugs. His name is Kian de los Santos.
I keep seeing his name on Twitter. Everybody is angry and we have yet to hear from the President. I want to see the President denounce it on TV, say that it was wrong and it needs to stop.
I believe Kian is innocent, but even if he weren’t, does the kid deserve to die?

I have a son in the 11th grade.
I’ve been so bothered by it that I had to remove Twitter from my phone.
The last time I got really affected was when I saw this picture taken by Raffy Lerma last July 2016.
You can read about the death of Michael Siaron HERE.

Pieta

The photo haunted me for nights. I couldn’t sleep. Whenever I would talk about it with my husband, he didn’t want to have any of it. It bothered him so much.
I couldn’t stop thinking of it—of her—so I contacted Raffy Lerma on Instagram where I follow him.
I told Raffy I wanted to meet the widow Jennilyn Olayres.

A few days later I received a text from Jennilyn and asked my friend Dinna to come with me to the province to meet her.
We drove to a far away SM Mall and waited at the food court. Then Jennilyn texted me she was already there. I found her with her pregnant sister-in-law and my first instinct was to hug her and cry. She hugged me really hard but did not cry.

We sat at the food court, though nobody was hungry. She told me her story with Michael. They were not married, but they lived together and she loved him. He was a drug user but he didn’t harm anyone but himself.
It was close to midnight when it started raining cats and dogs. He decided to take his father-in-law’s sidecar since people took more rides when it was raining. He figured he could make a few bucks.

Before leaving Jennilyn at home, he gave her his last 80 pesos so she could have something to eat.
Not too long after there was a commotion in the neighborhood. She heard something had happened to Michael. At first she thought he had a vehicular accident. She ran out, and when she got to the crime scene, the place was filled with onlookers, police, photographers and cameras.
At first they wouldn’t let her across the cordon, but she fought her way in.
“Ako ang asawa!” she yelled at them.

She found his body, cradled it and cried for help but nobody took them to the hospital. She thought he still had a chance but he was already dead.
Dinna asked why her leg was around his body. She said she was trying to cover him because they kept taking photos.
I cried while she told me the story. It felt like she was the one comforting me.
I wanted to see her because I wanted to give her some money to help her get by, even for a few weeks. She accepted it, then we hugged and said goodbye.
I have not seen her since. Her entire family and many neighbors have fled the city because they are scared to die.

Now Kian is dead.
This afternoon I was walking in the mall with Dinna and I told her the world is changing—can you feel it? Even my life is painful. You can feel it in the air. It is so thick. I cannot take it.
I decided to disable Twitter on my phone. I cannot take the world right now with the Andy Bautista and UBER, Charlottesville, Barcelona, Trump and the massacre in Bulacan.
I can feel everything even though I am mostly at home.

I don’t really know what is going on in the world. I am freaking out and I want to clear my head.
I didn’t vote last May 2016 because I didn’t think anyone was worth voting for.
Knowing our President, he’s not going to do something about Kian and I cannot take it. Something is very wrong with the world. I don’t know what to do except pray.

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gusm

What’s happening in this country is total anarchy, mainly perpetrated by the authorities themselves. Apparently, there is no more need for warrants, investigations, rule of law or due process. Poor Filipinos are simply being eliminated with nobody knowing if they were even guilty of anything at all. And if they were guilty of something, were their infractions equate the loss of their precious lives? They too have loved ones who will miss them and mourn for them. It’s very disturbing and scary how lives in this country are being treated so cheaply. Nobody is for the plorifiration of drugs, but… Read more »

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Farah

This is so true. It still surprises me how some people are downplaying the death of Kian. Are people looking the other way because they are Duterte supporters and they do not want his name to be tarnished? What has come to our humanity? I condemn this killing because it encourages police to kill the innocent (everyone is innocent until proven guilty) without fear. I admire you Ms. Cecile for doing the unthinkable and for not being afraid to be judged by others just because you helped the family of a drug addict. For sure, you have “peers” who would… Read more »

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Mark Canizares

Love you!?

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CVS Reply:

:)))

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Flor

Ms. Chuvaness, What’s happening in this world has been prophesied already in the book of Ezekiel 38 and 39, Psalm 83, and in Revelation (all from the bible). What we need is Jesus, look only to him and repent. It’s going to get worst before it gets better, but if you accept Jesus as your Lord and Saviour, your fears will be wiped away. Earth is just another realm, to a bigger reality. Psalm 46:10 says “BE STILL AND KNOW I AM GOD”. This verse has given me comfort, and serves as an anchor in my daily walk. Hope you… Read more »

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J J

Dear Ms. C,you are correct, the world is changing. I feel the pain too it’s like my soul is under too much pressure and it won’t permanently go away. When I say It’s changing, I meant most of us might be in pain. I had mine since I was a child so I suppose I did not want to go out in this world until c-section. My darkest night of the soul was in 2011 but it never really went away. So I just wish for you that you will not experience betrayal from a love one leaving you broken.… Read more »

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arlyn

Would just like to thank you for helping jennilyn – for doing something concrete when all we could do was to offer a prayer. I admire you for your compassion.

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vampireinthecity

I will not take what he did in Davao away from him. He deserves it, the people love him for it, and while Davao felt militant – it was also the most liveable and cosmopolitan city amidst the turmoil in Mindanao. But he had a political monopoly over Davao for more than 20 years – so he had time to change things. He only has 6 years for all of the Philippines, he has significant opposition, and the issues are larger and more complex. You cannot apply the same actions as Davao – the context is different and he has… Read more »

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cheekeegirl

It is sad that all the killings are pointed and blamed to Pres. Duterte. In my point of view, he is taken out of context already and what he really wants is not what is happening. really! people are so focused only on one point while not understanding his other point. Yes, he may be good and effective in our place even if their family monopolize us forever, we don’t care. I understand that each place too is different from ours. Davao is different from Manila. Way too different that’s why we love it here. But people are so quick… Read more »

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victorine

those who voted for Duterte, despite knowing his track record in Davao City, should be blamed noh? [Reply]cheekeegirl Reply:August 22nd, 2017 at 11:53 AMI don’t think so. I lived in Davao all my 38 years of my life and I love it here more than anywhere else. 😉 many have said ill thoughts about our Mayor Rody. Many said they knew him already for less than 2 years. but sorry to say you don’t know him still… he is not perfect, far to perfect.. but he made our place liveable for us. many judged him like he’s a wicked, evil… Read more »

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cheekeegirl

I don’t think so. I lived in Davao all my 38 years of my life and I love it here more than anywhere else. 😉 many have said ill thoughts about our Mayor Rody. Many said they knew him already for less than 2 years. but sorry to say you don’t know him still… he is not perfect, far to perfect.. but he made our place liveable for us. many judged him like he’s a wicked, evil creature, but he has helped thousands here in our city away from the news, limelight. not broadcasted and actually no need to tell… Read more »

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JK Comia

Why should you blame the voters? It’s a democracy. If in any case, the killings now are sensationalized even though this has been happening for a long time. Almost every death case now is tagged as EJK even though evidence, or lack thereof, points to the contrary. So don’t blame the voters for having elected Duterte, drug use, murder and criminality has been present regardless of who’s in the office.

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singapoorboy

Why (you think) blame the people who just exercised their right to vote? smh.

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Philip Roberto

this is stupid.

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Liaa14

All lives matter! We are slaughtering our countrymen and when you look at the comment sections there are those that mock the deaths of these people, calling those rising in protest: dilawan, durugistas, and drug coddlers. May God have mercy on these trolls. The gospel this Sunday says that among the commandments that Jesus said that one should not commit is THOU SHALT NOT KILL, THOU SHALT NOT STEAL, THOU SHALT NOT BEAR FALSE WITNESS AGAINST THY NEIGHBOR. How can we rationalize and trivialize this? I am with you in this Cil. I hate what this country has become. Hate… Read more »

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JK Comia

What do you mean by “We are slaughtering our countrymen”? Are we cannibals? Slaughter means butchering/killing for food. Harsh words for someone who refers to the gospel for their reasoning. Maybe those “trolls” you are calling were victims of drug addicts turned criminals and are just happy to see justice in the form of killings. If you hate this country, then do something to change it or leave. Maybe go out of your comfort zone and go to places where there’s poverty and see the underlying cause of drug use and addiction and selling.

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Liaa14

what do you call indiscriminate killing? Slaughter. I will not leave as I am totally invested in this country. Don’t go judging me because you do not know me.

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JK Comia

Who said I’m judging you? Maybe you felt that way coz you are projecting. I’m not hurt by your sentiments. Why should I when I know the reality of what’s happening around. Your feelings and every body else doesn’t matter in most cases. It’s just hypocritical of most people to use religion to preach what is right. Learn to understand human nature and you’ll see why some see the killings of drug addicts doesn’t bother them. Also, the word that you are looking for is “mass murder” for indiscriminate killing if we are talking about semantics here. What happened to… Read more »

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Sher Segov

Collateral damage? Say that again if one of your family member become one or you.

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JK Comia

Your argument makes no sense, that’s a false rationalization. And yes, I have first-hand experience on the dangers of drug use and correlation to criminal activity. I had a close relative whose a drug addict and criminal. Just recently, two of our neighbors got killed over drugs. Am I happy to see them dead? A part of me is rejoicing cause one of them is truly a menace to society-stealing from the neighbors, not just once but multiple times despite going to jail . Was there absolution on his part despite the jail time ? Hell NO-he went back to… Read more »

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Liaa14

My feelings matter. If yours don’t then bully for you. Maybe you didn’t go to mass last Sunday and didn’t hear the readings.

What happened to Kian has happened to the brother of an employee of mine. So these are a series of unfortunate events… It is murder.

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JK Comia

“Maybe you didn’t go to mass last Sunday and didn’t hear the readings.” Why that would matter? If everyone who goes to mass and goes to live what are written in the scriptures, do you think we’ll have a utopian society? Not all people are governed by religion in their daily lives, much less live the sermon. Hypocrisy, that’s what it is. Preaching is one thing, live and acting is out is another. Matthew 7:1-5 “Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2 For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the… Read more »

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Liaa14

I hate what this country has become. I do not hate my country. I hate what it has become. You seem very hurt by my sentiments. Why? I do not like that Filipinos are being killed indiscriminately. If I see anyone being killed without due process that’s what I will feel. It isn’t right.

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Lorraine Villanueva

Praying every night for the leaders of our country to have Gods guidance. But your kindness and generosity never fail to amaze me, Ms.C. regards to Ms.Dinna.

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Merlinda Little

For years and years that I am here in the UK theres nothing that I want to do but to go home because that is where my family is.. when I heard about Kian and what happened to him I feel that its safe anymore. EVen in here with all the terror attacks. I feel so scared as a mother. What is happening with the world and will the bad things end.

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Pauline Torralba

We have a president who says “I cannot condemn without validation” addressing the PNP. Something so unbelievable bec we all know him to be the type to open his mouth without using his head. Clearly there is so much injustice yet many still believe that what the president says is right given how bad our drug problem is. I have somehow stopped reading the news because it frustrates and stresses me out but most of the time I cannot help it. it seems what is wrong or bad keeps prevailing. You are right that what we can only do is… Read more »

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angelinacg

It feels like there’s so much happening, too much hate and violence, and yet what bothers me most is that for a lot of people everything’s just fine. I get so shocked at some of the comments both online and offline, of how a lot of people celebrate and even cheer for the death of the victims. Guilty or not, I don’t believe this should be the way. I get tempted sometimes to stop reading the news, but im afraid I’ll get desensitized like them if I stop reading about what’s happening. Thank you for what you did to help… Read more »