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Déjà Vu
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My son Ben, 11, asks the most curious questions.
When he was little he asked me, “Mommy, when you were a kid, did you use feathers to write?”

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“No Ben, Mommy’s not that old. We had pens and pencils.”
Another time: “Mommy, when you were a kid, were people black and white?”

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Mama and her friends

“No Ben, some were sepia. (just kidding!!) We had color. Only TVs, movies, and pictures were black and white.”

Then one night Ben says, “Mommy, why do I feel like this happened already?”
“What happened?” I ask him.
“You and me sitting here. It happens to me sometimes. Like something that’s happening happened already.”
“Ben, that’s what they call Déjà Vu—the feeling that something already happened.”
Hard to explain.

Back in the ’80s, during one of those summers, my family was staying at the Hyatt Terraces Baguio

Hyatt Terraces Baguio

I was a scrawny little kid with glasses and curly hair. I remember grabbing a hairbrush, standing on the bed while facing the mirror and lipsyncing this song on the cassette player. I closed my eyes, feeling the moment.
You could say I was already a gay man at that time…

I was halfway through the song when I opened my eyes and saw a roomboy/housekeeper standing by the door and holding a stacking of towels with his mouth hanging open.
I swear to God, I wanted the earth to swallow me up like Ricky Lo interviewing Anne Hathaway.
I don’t remember what I did to get out of that situation, but I survived. And now whenever Déjà Vu comes to mind I think of a hairbrush, a bed, and a roomboy with a stack of towels….

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This is one of your best posts EVER. Really.

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CVS Reply:

thanks. wala masyadong nag react. haha

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neutralistic

Overheard: “Do you mean to tell me, Dad, that when you were little you HAD to get up to change the channel?!?”

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CVS Reply:

we get that too 🙂

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“I swear to God, I wanted the earth to swallow me up like Ricky Lo interviewing Anne Hathaway.”

Hahaha, this!

Nice and light but insightful post, Cecile. 🙂

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Tricia D.

There’s always that one person who catches you doing something weird.

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