The Why and the moving on

Sometime last December or January, I was asked if I were willing to be interviewed for an article Jenna Sauers was writing about someone I used to know.
It was during the holidays and I couldn’t be bothered to go on Skype and put it together. Truthfully I just wanted him—the problem to go away—sort of like Bernie Madoff or the Birkin scammer who has fled to Texas.

When Jenna’s article came out in the New York Observer, I was disappointed that her article lacked many important facts, and I regretted the missed opportunity to say something.
So when fate brought me to Bangkok last April and I met Paolo Reyes of Rogue magazine, he talked about a profile they were doing on a certain blogger I used to know. He asked if I were willing to go on the record and help them put the story together. And with that I said yes. No more missed opportunity.

Now that the magazine is out, his friends/fans/supporters are asking why now? Why can’t I just move on?
How to move on when this creature and his sidekick continue to attack me online (parinig on Twitter) or anonymously in forums.
I am tired when people just assume I am jealous of him and his achievements.
I am baffled when I see that someone so evil can be acclaimed even by the same people he has tried to ruin on his evil blogs.
I am baffled with the short memory and that people don’t seem to mind that he got where he is by ruining lives—and by accumulating numerous credit card accounts.

To be jealous would be to assume that I want his life of traveling around the world, siting in the front row of fashion shows, being photographed and featured in magazines, going to all kinds of events, and spending like money grows on trees.
Fashion used to fascinate me when I was younger. But when I became a mom, my life changed, my goals changed. Even my weight changed.
My close friends will all tell you I would rather stay home in my sweats and with my boys.

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The past two days have been crazy ever since the magazine was released in print and on Zinio.com.
I had a three-hour lunch yesterday with Fr. Allen of Calaruega, who gave me spiritual guidance and I am grateful for the friends and their moms who are praying for me through this difficult time, because to talk about the past is to relive the the nightmare and the firsthand experience of knowing what this evil person is capable of.

So yes I will move on. I can now move on because I have said my piece. And if people still choose to worship him, then we probably can’t be friends because our values are different and your motives will always baffle me.

P.S. Before Rogue went to publish, it was read through by their lawyers while I have my own lawyers on backup.
I am very sorry if there were other people I mentioned as a matter of storytelling. I have no ill feelings or any intention to confront or hurt any of them. I wasn’t able to see the final draft as I had to leave for New York with my mom.
You are victims too and you know who you are. I hope we can still be friendly.

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  • http://twitter.com/RoseMagsRubi Rose Magalona Rubi

    Who is Tina?

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  • http://www.facebook.com/christopher.sevilla Christopher Sevilla

    just purchased the magazine online and wahhhhhhh unable to download the page…

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    CVS Reply:

    why? what platform are you using?

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    Christopher Sevilla
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    I read it na…..I was using Google Chrome so I changed to IE 8 and it worked fine =^_^=

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    Christopher Sevilla
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    by the way I like the PI part of the interview…u rock

  • http://twitter.com/nikkiluna nikki luna

    “If people still choose to worship him, then we probably can’t be friends because our values are different and your motives will always baffle me.” – Word. It baffles me too. People should realize and learn what it means to have principles.

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  • http://twitter.com/zimmerusk AnnDemeulemeester

    Natawa ako sa “sales lady” comment.  Nakita ko nga mga comments ng dating sales associate (yan ha, class ang dating).  Kung makareact naman na na-drag siya sa issue akala mo kung sino.  Eh di ba ang tawag sa kaniya ni BB sa chikatime was J the dispatsadora???  Hay naku Ms. JE wag kang plastic!  At wag ng masyadong mag-ingles at alam kong grabe na nosebleed inaabot mo.  Be comfortable in your own league.  Don’t try to fit in a circle that you don’t belong (alta-sociedad). 

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    goldier Reply:

    I have finally read the article. I don’t understand why JE is so pissed about it. Nothing bad or outrageous was being said about her naman. You cannot talk about Chikatime without mentioning her name. Duh.

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  • http://twitter.com/nikkiluna nikki luna

    “if people still choose to worship him, then we probably can’t be
    friends because our values are different and your motives will always
    baffle me.” – I agree with this thought, people should realize what it means to have principles.

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  • ChuvanessLover

    I have read the article on Rogue Magazine. I’m currently taking up my post graduate studies in Psychology. Now this ‘boy’ is seriously troubled. And I mean seriously. Based on the stories stated in the article, I could say that it is definitely a self-esteem issue since the beginning – and much worse, he can be a candidate for a personality disorder called NPD or Narcissistic Personality Disorder. Symptoms include: taking advantage of others to reach their own goals, being obsessed with oneself, pursuing mainly selfish goals, wanting “the best” of everything, and exaggeration of one’s importance, achievements, and talents. Very much like this ‘boy’ Now that is really scary, if you ask me.

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    goldier Reply:

    Agree. He needs a psychiatrist. The signs are all there.

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  • goldier

    It’s so easy to cite envy as the reason why you chose to be interviewed. Really, what is there to be envious about? 

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  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=658622931 Gladdys Corpuz

    I remember when I first stumbled upon his blog years ago when he was just still rising to fame. My very first impression of him was that he was overrated and classless (but he had a lot of followers..which was so weird). I’m sorry, but I have never thought of him as high fashion material. High fashion is classy and not trying hard. He seemed like that kind of person who desperately wants to seek attention be it good or bad publicity. As many others, I have also wondered how he could afford all those stuff, he didn’t looked rick to me and his attitude was very “palengkera” which didn’t fit in the picture at all. I mean the rich people I know are very demure and they know how to present themselves the “right way”, as in they are very  mahangin. Anyways, everytime I watch ANTM, he seems so outcast in there.

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  • Sam

    kudos to you Ms. C for doing this…..i searched for the article on google and discovered that female network.com already has a thread about you on its girl talk page. FYI lang po. we- your Chuvaness fans will continue to stand by you. keep up the faith! God Bless you =)

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  • http://www.facebook.com/christopher.sevilla Christopher Sevilla

    I think she is popular because she is chuvanesss……. and she is CVS and she is Cecille Zamora

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  • http://twitter.com/janglegirl jocelyn ang

    Saw BB’s blog just as everyone’s dissing him and I don’t understand why he’s popular or even admired.  Read one to 2 pages and I’m bored already medyo pretentious and parang may pagka-social climber, and who the hell wears those pair of shorts on the streets anywhere? Its one thing to be a fashionista and another to call attention to oneself. I don’t know his history but if he’s really a scam artist, well, he must be a successful one, but these kind of people eventually get outed and what do they have but probably living all alone in an empty miserable life, nothing more.  Ms. C, your blog offers a more rounded topic.  After all, you did not make it to the most influential people in the Philippines for nothing!

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  • Gigi Hall

    Got to read the issue at the Polo library. I’m surprised the victims are now friendly with him!  Now, that was new news for me.

    As for that Chikatime issue….. more than the legal implications that it carried, it was probably even more disturbing  for you that people thought you were capable of writing and publishing nasty things like that.

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  • Guest

    Hi! Hindi ako nakatiis! downloaded zinio asap and bought the magazine! both Zinio and Rogue should thank you for this! hehehe . i suddenly realized but his name is also Francis Bryan same with the person who made headlines few years back regarding a bank. 

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  • PHboy

    I don’t envy BB but CVS–that is for having Jeroen.My ultimate crush!

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  • http://www.facebook.com/people/Orna-Mint/100001622268047 Orna Mint

    And about that evil blogger, let’s just be happy that he is living the life he wants, a life full of shallowness.

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  • http://www.facebook.com/people/Orna-Mint/100001622268047 Orna Mint

    Indeed, one’s priorities suddenly change when one becomes a parent.

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  • Grazilda

    Who is TBH?

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  • grazilda

    who is TY?

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    Aiaiaibuhay Reply:

    Tim Yeps

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  • Thechancetraveler

    So much energy wasted on this CARICATURE. Ay creature pala, sabi mo sa interview. Glad i don’t know him, but out of curiosity I searched and saw how he looks and I thought “That’s it! That’s why he got into the show. Tyra seems to be looking for caricatures, este creatures that have PET(rifying) looks. Sorry, harsh, but from what planet is he? I don’t know high-fashion but I think I know what’s gadawful is.  And the photos…wow, who’s taking those? I’m sure not a real paparazzi. I hope this person is at least doing all these crazy stunts for the good of his family.

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  • http://twitter.com/LorenaAndLoreta LorenaAndLoreta

    Oh thank  you! :)

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  • http://stubbornfilipina.tumblr.com Zarah Hernaez

    I am for forgiveness if there is some remorse involved but I don’t think there is any. You did good for having the interview. Many other criminals get away with doing the same thing. People have to be warned of these things. I can’t associate with people who are as evil as that. I would wonder how they can sleep at night knowing that the person they had dinner with is not only a thief but uses and steps on others for their own advantage. It’s slimy and I don’t know why they would want to be tainted with such slime. It doesn’t matter if a person has a few friends, doesn’t matter if they don’t have much, as long as theyare decent, God fearing and true. We’re here to support you, Ate. I know you went through a lot then. You are better off without them and are so much better than all of them combined.

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  • Elmo Paras

     If people choose to be silent and be nonchalant about this, good for them. But don’t fault people who choose to say their side of the story. Names were mentioned because they are part of the story.

    I love you CVS!

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    Emily Go Reply:

    I dont understand why they say they dont care and they cant be bothered but turns around and tweets nonstop about the issue.

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    L. Reply:

    And when you know you have been wronged, with possibility that others may be too, keeping mum about it is only another way of saying you’re on evil’s side.

    So much for optimism. 

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    moon shine Reply:

    correct. you were betrayed by a person who pretended to be your friend and hung around you for months. in the end your other friends got mad at you, you got embroiled in a scandal that you were clueless about, and to top it off you had to pay legal fees to protect your good name. tapos the person involved gets off scotfree…….grrrrrrrr. this is the truth and there is no spinning it. inggit ba kamo? ano naman ang dapat ikainggit sa kanya.
    like you, i used to like fashion. yes, priorities change as life changes…now i am a wife and mum and fashion is ok but not that important in my big picture. to this guy, i doubt he will ever change because his life revolves solely around himself, and sycophants around him support his illusion that he is “all that”. thus, there is no impetus to introspection and emotional growth.

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  • http://twitter.com/LorenaAndLoreta LorenaAndLoreta

    who is DL? :)

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  • Apache

    National, dept. store, damn, kahit sa may cashiers sa grocery iniisa isa ko pa ang mga lane . I.can’t.see.a.rogue.magazine.( In my side of this earth)…Nakakairita lang

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  • lellibelli

    I think CVS is popular because she is witty, diverse and real.

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  • Marius

    Checkmate.

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  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1007438190 Puyat Tuason

    I am not privy to what the real score between BB and you, but do know that you are so loved by your
    followers and this admiration is something you don’t find abroad or at Anna Wintour’s bidding – You have it here with us, your Chuvaness Army.  

    Pop Icon? Trendsetter? Mother? Bitch from Hell? Saint? really, I am running out of adjectives to describe you. 

    You rock CVS! 

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  • CLTHEBEST

    The reason why you did this interview – I don’t think it is because you’re jealous / crab mentality. 

    The magazine wanted to do an expose, you were interviewed, and you answered. What you stated were facts. Why cover up for him when he betrayed you? I understand why you were hurt, he was a friend. When haters hate on you, it’s understandable. However, when the people close to you betrays you, THAT’S WHEN IT HURTS THE MOST.

    The people who still worships him / supports him / still friends with him after he talked shit about them NUMEROUS times in chikatime? They are just defending him because they just want to be associated with him and his fame (hello, how many people can say “I am BFFs with an ANTM judge?”). Or maybe.. he showered them with shopping sprees. Janthina Fong (according to the article) said he’s very very very sweet, afterall.

    However, these reasons are understandable too because, well, it is a shallow world out there. And who cares if you have been accused of doing coke at Embassy, if he gives you an all expense paid trip and shopping spree, right? LOL.

    If it is just water under the bridge for them, then good for them. But people should NOT expect you to have the same sentiments. What they experienced is not remotely the same to what YOU went through. They weren’t accused to be the owner of Chikatime, now weren’t they? It’s not their friends / bosses who stopped speaking to them, now weren’t they? It’s not them who tried to find consolation to Bryanboy, when in the end, the friend who’s trying to console you was the evil behind ALL THE HELL that you went through. 

    Which again, I think that’s what hurts the most. 

     I applaud you for saying your piece. I hope more people will read the article before judging you.

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  • http://carmelyn.blogspot.com/ Aiaiaibuhay

    Ahaha seryoso si killdabitch :D

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  • http://twitter.com/leapinaygypsy Lea Ablaya

    Just bought a copy today. I admire you for telling the truth. As the saying goes, you can’t please everyone. Many people will have their own opinion. So long as what you said is the truth, there’s nothing to be afraid of. 

    Now I wonder, is this person still able to sleep peacefully at night? Wala ba syang konsensya?

    Buhay pa sya, sinusunog na sa impyerno ang kaluluwa nya. 

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  • Emily Go

     These people who choose to associate with him even after being wronged are only there because of selfish reasons. I find it quite disconcerting to be surrounded by people who I bet have dreamt of stabbing me in my sleep. Kalowkah!

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  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=581779396 Reb Belleza
  • Gingerparas

    How can people say you are jealous of him?! How can anyone be jealous of him!  He is delusional. I can’t believe how many people he has manipulated.  I think shallow people attract shallow people.  He lives in a fantasy world and will be alone and lonely in his senior years with his bags to keep him company.  I think BB might be jealous of YOUR life, because it is real and sincere.

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  • Grace

    I think she was kidding, you know!

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  • http://www.currystrumpet.com/ Deepa

    Well said. You made your reasons clear; unfortunately (for the reading public!) others prefer to keep their motives hidden for reasons known only to them. 
    It’s true that things left unsaid can haunt and hurt us. I guess some people just can’t understand this and instead fall on third-grade playground logic like “inggit ka lang” and “papansin.” I hope unburdening yourself has helped you gain some much-deserved peace of mind.

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  • http://twitter.com/SungEmpress Mayo

    I was kidding when I said “been there, been that”. :)  

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    haha it’s cool 8)

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  • Jeroen

    Humans are naturally fascinated by “people of wealth and power” It doesn’t matter that much how this power or wealth was achieved, people will always admire and bow to crooks as long as they stay wealthy and powerful. Once a person no longer has either of the two he will be forgotten very fast. This guy is admired in his own field, looked up to and his ass has been kissed many times over, locally and abroad. To reach this level of power he has stepped on many people along the way and made fools out of many people in Manila. These same people he made look like fools then are now his admirers and they are the ones how say for you to move on. They are fascinated by him and blinded by all the bling, all the name dropping and famous people he has met around the globe. They want to be close to him, want a piece of him and be able to say they know him. Until he looses his power in his industry the people will ignore all these past facts of this scamming backstabber and Manila`s society will continue to worship him.

    People tent to forget.

    About 8 years ago in the place i worked i caught an employee red handed stealing tip money from our tip box in the restaurant. He got fired on the spot. I asked him how long he had been stealing; a couple of times a week for the past several months.

    A month later i saw him in the restaurant talking to some of our staff. He was just visiting he said. 
    So i opened a conversation with all of them “Why are you friending this guy who stole money from you?” – I could`t understand the nerve the thief had to come back to our restaurant and how the staff could be friendly to this guy that just stole money from all of them!

    People tent to forget really fast! Not me though and neither should the people who intentionally still befriend Bryan. 

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    besYS Reply:

    Well said Jereon!

    “People tend to forget really fast” and that’s very sad!

    CVS, I just bought an online copy from zinio. Super Scary si BB!!!

    besYS

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    Genesis Grace Paredes Reply:

    In the more humble side of blog world, I have experienced what just hapened here. I was blogging truthfully yet in a bitter sense because I was totally WRONGED by some people. Many empathized with me but at the end of the day, everyone’s forgotten why I  got so mad, people were all clinging to those who were obviously proven to be wrong… and I was there, alone… like I was jealous, a hater and all! But the fact of the matter is that, you dont get to forget so easily when it’s you who had been wronged and was later left alone — judged, and ridiculed just because everyone loves the party that goes on the other side…. 

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  • Emily Go

    I caved and downloaded zinio :D paid 2.99 and it was worth it :D

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    njmanang Reply:

     Hey I just remembered I have $10 credit at Zinio. Time to use it. : )

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  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=581779396 Reb Belleza

    Here’s something to back it up : http://cidg.pnp.gov.ph/NewsPress.htm

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    Bonita Balles
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    i can’t sem t find the exact article :(

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  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=581779396 Reb Belleza
  • http://chuvaness.com CVS

    I am really amazed that people like you exist. I was his biggest supporter before he did this to me. Crab mentality? Are you crazy? he is the one who created the crabbiest blog of all—chikatime. Now go away PLease!

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  • Dinna Vasquez

    Amen to staying home in sweats with our kids. Be strong and continue to stay true to what you believe in.

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    Mark Sablan
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    I second emotion!

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  • http://twitter.com/frazzolino Jude Lopez Mancuyas

    He’s not someone you used to know. He’s someone you thought YOU KNEW, which is more painful.

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  • http://profile.yahoo.com/ON7WQP26NWWDK7MAT4VH46AGMU her_line

    I’m dying to buy that Rogue issue! Anyway, you are waaaaayyyyyy better than him. sabi nga nila Hindi mo xa kalevel! Love yah Ms. Chuvaness

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  • http://twitter.com/blairbitchbunny conchita


    My close friends will all tell you I would rather stay home in my sweats and with my boys.”

    – ultimately, they are the only important things in our lives. family.

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  • http://chenmeicai.blogspot.com Chai Chen

    Hmmm, this could be my 1st Rogue issue …

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    teadrinker
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    Me too! 

    Was really so shocked that he became part of ANTM. Pero hindi naman markado ang participation niya doon, in my opinion.

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  • http://twitter.com/SungEmpress Mayo

    Ms. C, ganun talaga. Minsan kung sino pa ang nagsasabi ng totoo, sila ang binabato. What I can say is that I do believe you. I know you have nothing to gain by this exposé. 

    ‘ika nga, “Been there, been that.” Smile! Your fans love you! :)

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  • http://twitter.com/nappyKAYE First Wives Club

    You did the right thing. And yes, people will take sides. Some will remain blind to facts. But the truth needs to come out. I admire you – that you chose to do this. 

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  • http://twitter.com/toraynosaurus Don Johnson Torayno

    We should give a copy of Rogue Sept issue to Tyra Banks. She should know BB’s evil dominatrix background rather than being the ‘world’s powerful fashion blogger.’ He might infest Top Model #justsaying

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    omnesia Reply:

     Now that the truth has been said, let the Universe take its course. Revenge is not ours, it is divine. It is so easy to say and feel, JUSTICE needs to be served! These people who love BB should WAKE UP! Telling the truth is more for one’s sanity, than for perpetuating the ego which wants to be noticed, to be loved, to be admired, to be “right.” If you tell the truth and you feel relief, it is in line with the good. If you tell the truth and wail, it is still of the ego. The truth has not been respected as an end in itself, but again as a means to a human end.

    And I feel that is precisely why the revelations have ruffled so many feathers. People concerned are confronted with a reflection they are not ready to accept, or that they continuously ignore and repress. The question—is it all WORTH IT? Is this charade even real? Do you really think Tyra, Karl, Marc, and all those who surround him will suddenly have a glorious epiphany and reject BB? Won’t you even think they actually know about these things? I’d think they were not born yesterday. Won’t you accept the possibility that in that world, unfortunately, transactional relationships rule? In fact, BB may be thinking he is the king of the world, hobnobbing with powerful people, when in fact these powers-that-be are surely snorting and chuckling behind the back of this ingenue. Sabi nga sa Filipino, papunta pa lang si BB, pabalik na ang mga lolo at lola nya na yun!

    In a way, people who are with BB deserve it. Deserve it, in a sense that it is their karma to be part of his drama and the tribulations associated with it, to hit rock bottom as an OPPORTUNITY to take a different fork in the road.

    And for that Cecile I admire you for having taken this painful opportunity as a chance to make a decision—to take stock of what’s right, what’s important. People change, and if certain friends are having a difficult or impossible time accepting this, it’s all part of that dimension that doesn’t matter anymore.

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    oh_fudge
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    uhm, no.  It’s not in anyone’s position to do that.  

    It could also be that before BB was hired in that show, they did a background check.  Sure, he *may* have committed some crimes but until hard evidence is found and presented, everything might as well be hearsay.

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  • Tagle_tina

    I’m with you all the way mother. Thru thick and thin. Love you!

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    CVS Reply:

    miss you mother

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