Bob: The most terrifying day of your life is the day the first one is born.
Charlotte: Nobody ever tells you that.
Bob: Your life, as you know it… is gone, never to return. But they learn how to walk, and they learn how to talk and you want to be with them. And they turn out to be the most delightful people you will ever meet in your life.
—Lost In Translation
It’s a blessing that your children do not see you the way others do, or even the way you see yourself.
For them, I can wear a pink dress with yellow shoes. They associate me with flowers and butterflies and pink and purple rooms. They leave me notes and flowers.
They do not see a person weighed down by fears, phobias, pains, and constant battles with myself and the outside world. For no matter how others see me, there will always be the boys at home who think I am an angel and a loving mom.
Thank you for all your well wishes.